Then on Friday I took a nap, which I hadn't done in a long time. I love naps because of the state of sleep that you're in. It's not extremely deep and you have wonderful dreams about people you know. Then when you wake up, you don't quite remember what you dreamed about, but the image of the person you dreamed of is so clearly seared into the front of your mind. So when I woke up Laura's face was right there in my mind to greet me. So although I don't know what I dreamed of, I DO know that Laura was there and she was on my mind for the rest of the day...I miss her.
Can you love someone that you've never met? I think so. I dream of him and I and all that we could be. I dream about meeting him, dating, marriage, and children. It's quite hasty to think so far ahead with someone you have never met, but that just makes me feel like maybe it's meant to be...in time. Thoughts of him and I together have gotten me through the long days, and lonely nights, at work. Even at home I'm lonely for me and long to be in his arms. I know he is a special amazing guy... I can't wait until we are both well enough for a relationship. Once we both are back on track maybe we will finally meet and get something started. I want that so badly...maybe more than anything I have ever wanted in my entire life. If I'm so passionate now...it'll be amazing if we actually ended up together. Please, God...let him be the one and lead us to one another!
Grey Gardens...my new favorite musical soundtrack. Wow. So deep and emotional. I find traces of myself in Little Edie's words and songs. Not exactly a good thing, but it's still so wonderful.
Edie Beale, 'Around the World' (from Grey Gardens)
I feel very strongly about mementos. Memorabilia, I guess you call it.
Around the world is what I call my wall of special things.
Around the world with rose bouquets, I dried and tied on strings.
A silver mask from a masquerade, around and round I twirled.
You tack the up so you can twirl around the world...
Around the world with stones and shells; the nicest one I lost.
Around the world without a boat, I'm just a quote from Frost.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood; a lovely crossing on.
Around the world, the world around the attic wall.
Around the world there isn't room for every special thing.
Around the world you choose a few to make the music sing.
A silver mask from a masquerade, around and round I twirled.
You tack them up, so when you go, the world will be the one you know.
A birdcage I plan to hang, I'll get to that someday.
A birdcage for a bird who flew away...
Around the world.
Christine Ebersole's voice is angelic. So perfect... I love her in these roles. It's amzing how she can play two radically different characters in the same show and do it so well. I want to be more like her. She's simply the best.
